Wednesday, 8 August 2012

Should I, Would I, Could I? Am I ready?

Should I listen to my heart and follow what it tells me to do? Would I take the risk and just wait for you? Could I take all the consequences that comes with loving you?
These are just some of the questions that we ask ourselves when we love someone. Truth is, we only need to answer one question. Are we willing to do everything for love? It’s just either yes or no. It’s as simple as 123 but what makes it difficult are the consequences and fears that we have. When we love, we get hurt and that what scares us. It always go together just like you are yin and yang to each other. But why the pain? Why can’t it be just gettin giddy,iloveyou, imissyou, sweet nothings? Crazy, stupid, love!
We think about it’s complexity and over think like we normally do. Basically, we get hurt because we care too much, we love too much. If we don’t, we wouldn’t care at all and waste our precious time staying up late at night talking to that one person and find ways just to be with him. That’s how life is, we eventually get hurt. We dream, we expect, we hope and it might be good or bad in the end but it’s definitely worth trying. Like what they used to say; better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
Loneliness and pain will make you the worst person that you can be. The tears would be like a waterfall. You will cry randomly, especially when most of the things around you reminds you of him. It’s crazy, you won’t have the appetite to eat, to sleep and to get up everyday. That same person who brought you happiness is the same reason of your sadness. People get hurt by losing someone through cheating, death, petty things because of individual differences, forbidden love, complicated situations, personal issues and so on. Yes, we have to go through the grieving process of coping just like literally losing someone; These stages are denial, anger, bargaining, depression and lastly, acceptance. ACCEPTANCE! That final stage is so relieving! But it’s hard when you are a weak and sensitive person. You feel that the pain is worse than anybody else. Pain is subjective because we are all not the same. We have different experiences in life, different backgrounds and different ways of dealing with problems.
No matter who you are or what you’ve been through, most of us get crazy at one point in our lives. All because of LOVE.  It’s a wonderful feeling but it’s bittersweet. That’s how it should be or else it’s not love. Normal is overrated, we get stupid sometimes and it’s OK. People will judge you, say bad things about you or may just laugh at you for doing crazy stuff for love. That’s fine, because it is really crazy and you know it! You always have a choice. It’s not being dumb, because you are fully aware of it. (unlike for some) Logic and love are always in battle. However, at the end of the day you do what your heart tells you to do. It’s not because you wanted all those mess and bullshts that came along with it, it’s because you accepted him and everything about about him. You saw something good in that person, you felt something special. When it hits you, it hits you. You are never 100% sure if it’s real or if it will last, nobody is. On second thought, you still want to try, maybe, just maybe it’s gonna be worth it. Maybe he will stay and try to be better for you or maybe he’s the one. If not now, maybe someday or maybe never. (call me, maybe? lol such a dork) What’s important are the lessons that we have learned. We might not be able to correct some mistakes or get another chance, but somehow it made us happy, the reason of our smiles and laughs that forever will be cherished. I believe that there’s always good in the bad no matter how a total pain in the arse a person can be, it sucks though but let’s just get over it. Somehow, that guy did care for you and loved you as well. Good memories, bad memories are all part of living and loving. You need to let it go. Free yourself form hate and leave it all there. You may try to get rid of those for you to move on or you can do whatever works for you. No regrets, that’s love.
We cannot just put the blame on one person who have hurt us because we are also responsible for everything that’s happening in our lives. We always have a choice and sometimes we choose to stay, to keep on trying even though we’re hurting and to stick through promises and forever. Unfortunately, it can end. Lucky for those who didn’t have to say goodbye with tears on their eyes. But to some, it may have caused them so much or maybe worse than i could ever imagine. That’s how it is. Nobody is perfect neither relationships. Everyone has his/her own love story. It needs inspired soul mates (i thnk they do exist now) to make it work and fight till the end. If fate is on your side, then love will always find a way.
So, when you’re about to start this roller coaster ride and decide to get serious about it. Ask yourself. Are you ready? If yes, then get a ticket and give it a shot..goodluck and enjoy!..Whatever happens, carry on!
(While typing this, I’m listening to the sweetest song ever written, plus the sax and piano..urgh!!! this is definitely on my wishlist, to be serenaded with this song..then I could die! haha don’t judge, i love the classics)
I would not leave you in times of trouble, we never could have come this far. Hmmm..I took the good times, I’ll take the bad times, I’ll take you just the way you are. -Billy Joel


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